I have been truly blessed throughout my pregnancy. I never had morning sickness in the first trimester, only bouts of nausea here and there and fatigue. The second trimester was heaven. I had energy enough to walk up to four miles at a time, do yoga and lift weights, as well as teach summer school and my middle school kids. When people asked me how I felt, my first response was “I absolutely LOVE being pregnant! It’s the best I’ve ever felt!”
Well, I’m sorry to say I’m not singing the same tune these days. This third trimester…I could kiss it goodbye! When reading about how I would feel by the 30th week, I felt very optimistic. “Oh, that’s not going to happen to me, I’m not going to feel stretched out, weighed down, fatigued, and grumpy…I LOVE being pregnant!” Oh what a naive girl I was.
By week 30, I knew I was in for a rude awakening. My stomach really started to weigh me down, and the waddling began. Oh the waddling. And the swelling in my feet and ankles caused me to only have access to a select pair of shoes (this makes me very upset). My non maternity clothes I could get away with were beginning to creep up higher and higher on my torso, and even the maternity jeans I had bought in the first trimester were starting to dig into my stomach while sitting. Walking around the classroom was a joke as well. My hip joints would pop out of place, sharp pains in my pelvis would cause me to jump, and again, the swollen feet issue. When I’d get home from work all I would have energy for was to maybe do a load of dishes, and then crash on the couch for the rest of the evening.
Now, at 35 weeks, I really have no control over my body. Jack seems to have taken over my entire torso, hands and feet digging into my ribs and pelvis. Poor kid, I think we’re both pretty uncomfy these days. And I have no room for food. NO ROOM! I eat a couple bites of this, a nibble or two of that, and I’m full. But hungry. There just isn’t enough room for Jack and food these days.
I have lack of bladder control, too! I thought my water broke last week after a long day of work and errands. Geoff took me to labor and delivery, tests were ran, and everything came back negative. Geoff asked what all the liquid was, and come to find out I just peed myself…no biggie. Ah! I was so afraid to work for fear that I would loose control and have an accident. An adult woman wetting herself can be hysterical…and yes, I am still laughing at myself and I’m totally cool if you laugh at my expense because IT IS FUNNY!! But if it happens at work, or in public then it becomes a real issue. Thankfully, my doctor took me off work this last Friday. Not because of my accident, even though it probably helped in the decision making, but because I am just EXHAUSTED and done!
This first week of maternity leave has been a blessing, however. I’m still exhausted, but I somehow feel a little more alive. Like I’m out of this funk of trying to hustle to get things done. Yes, I’m working on completing Jack’s nursery, purchasing must have items that weren’t given to us as gifts just yet, and just getting some odds and ends completed and out of the way. Geoff is painting our hallway and working on some last minute DIYs in the house before Jack gets here. We’re both nesting. I’ve addressed most of my thank you cards for the gifts we’ve received. Washed the majority of Jack’s clothes (I actually really loved washing his clothes, folding them, planning outfits out of them…).
And yet, I still LOVE being pregnant. Even with this miserable last trimester. I really wouldn’t change anything. I want to remember all of Jack’s kicks and jabs, even if they make me squirm and jump in my seat. I want to remember the funny stories that come from my lack of bodily control. That my belly grew so large that I had to finally break down and wear some damn maternity tops.
Have a great weekend everyone! Tonight Geoff and I are going to our friend’s house to carve pumpkins! I’ll be making pumpkin spice donuts for the party! And Saturday we plan on walking to Cajon St. to check out all of the Halloween trick or treating and decorations! Preparing for next year 😉